Ricky was born April 26th 1977 and died July 8th 2005 at the age of 28 of a heroin overdose. He was cremated on July 15th 2005 and the music I chose was "To Where You Are" by G4 and "High" by the Lighthouse Family. I wrote this poem nine months after Ricky had died. I miss him so. A Mothers Pain Its been 9 months since you left me Ricky, 9 months since that fatal dose of heroin. I was told it would get easier but that’s not true. The pain is as bad today as it was all those months ago. How I hate those drugs that took away my once lovely son And changed him into a different person, a person I tried for ten years to help but failed I miss you so I miss you so Each day I put on this normal face, but inside I am breaking, The ache in my heart is like a physical pain. You couldn’t cope with real life I know, I know you suffered great mental pain and nothing I did could help, only the drugs did that. I tried so hard but failed. I am so sorry Ricky. I miss you so I miss you so I didn’t even have the chance to say goodbye and tell you I loved you, damn the drugs. You were just 28 years old when the drugs did their final deed and took you from me forever. My life has changed forever, nothing feels the same anymore. If only I could give you one more hug. I miss you so I miss you so 9 months on and no one talks about you anymore, its like you never existed Life is so cruel How I wish I could have done more. I miss you so I miss you so Damn the drugs.